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"Why are you wearing that?" "Oh mesti kelas lecturer tu kan, haa kena la hipokrit sikit ye tak" Omg, you should stop manipulating on how I dress. Okay, the best answer I can give you is; it depends. Yeah. Depends on the way you're thinking - whether you think positively or not, I mean. Since years ago, there are going to be days where you will find me wearing "tudung labuh" and the other times I do not. During matriculation days, people are okay with that. The girls like it and they take pictures with me wearing that. They even lend me theirs so they can see me wear one. It was nice. The point is, why is some of you make fun of me wearing it during university? I am not okay with that. This is one of the reason why I dislike the students here - they think they are so big they can simply laugh at clothes I'm comfortable in. Ugh Well, to get even, all I can think is that they are culture-shock pricks. Suddenly getting the chance t...

Do you still remember how our mothers amazed us when we were little kids? I like these parts of my life - reminisce all the little things mother did for me. This morning, mother made us banana fritters for breakfast. I went to have my morning read and was not at the kitchen giving her a helping hand, too bad. Hm the story'd be cliche if I was there, isn't it? Hehe, no, probably not. I remember everytime we tried to load food into those plastic containers um, we had tupperwares. Mother always able to choose one which the food was going to fit just right, yep, right from afar, just by looking or estimating or was it by magic? That amused me. Thinking of the things mother used to do for me - things I can't do on my own. It strucks me when these days, I am able to do those things, it feels amazing yet it feels sad at the same time. I get this feelings - when we are able to do things that mothers do - it is like mothers do not need to aid us anymore. The more independent we ...

Semalam patutnya jumpa Elda pstu Ouija sekali dgn dia tapi sampai KLCC terus rasa mcm nak pass out. Kepala rasa ringan ya amat - terus beli panadol, beli air mineral. Masa beratur tu ingt nak mintak skip kat org dpn skali tp no energy ti even speak out jadi terpaksa tahan sakit smp lah dpat bayar that MYR1. Tak sempat keluar Isetan lg dah menggelabah telan panadol. Kisah pulak tak makan lagi ke apa asalkan panadol kena masuk perut jugak. Ahh Keluar Isetan terus jalan ke washroom paling dekat (pun jauh jugak sebab dah tenat, blurry sight, hands on walls). Em bro nak bagi flyers tu pulak he must have thought weirdly of me. Sampai ladies washrooom terus duduk. Cancel the plan to movie with Elda. I felt so effed up oh whyyy? I hate to cancel plans, ugh but cannot help it. Sakit dtg dua, tiga tahun sekali ni macam haram scratched the inside of my tummy aduh. Luckily, I can still think straight. I dialled my friends. Diana was the first one because I was with her earlier but she didnt p...

A round of applause for NORFARAHIN BINTI MOHAMAD RAZIF . Congratulations on your UPU result - yeah, so I went to check out your blog. Since you manage to further your study to degree level at Uitm Puncak Alam haha dah dekat lah kita. Tak kira lah walaupun I'm in KL and you'll be in Selangor. We're like less than an hour apart. Ooh ooh. This rings a bell. Idk Uitm Puncak Alam tu how far away from Uitm Shah Alam (which ada fakulti engineering tu) yg lagi satu but then, kawan kita yang dari sana pernah managed untuk sampai Bangsar within an hour or so jugak sebab masa tu mengada nak pergi tengok movie sesama kat Mid Valley. Lol and I was from Keramat, KL pun sampai lebih kurang 40minit macam tu. Tapi gerak tergesa-gesa jugak lah sebenarnya sebab dah lewat petang - taknak sampai sana dah malam. How many years have we been now? I didn't count but it'll be nice if we could actually meet as a person. Insha Allah, kan. CONGRATULATIONS *baling konfetti.

One question. Are you quitting on me?

18:02 16/4/2014 Hanani binti Zaharin Kajang S1EP1 UPM, Age 20 1994 - 2014 Nanot. Pergi. Jantung berlubang. Dah sihat. Jatuh sakit. Pengsan. Warded. Apa yg somewhat pecah? Emm. Brain infected w virus. Jangkitan kuman. Operation. Died of cns. Brain failure. Pergi. Dah pergi. Innalillah. Petang. Hujan. Apa lagi? I'm healthy but, what am I doing with my life? What am I now? Harap Nani dah contact semua kawan, dah puas jumpa family. Dah laksana semua yg wajib. Pergi lah. Tenang sana. Tak sakit lagi. Kami menyusul kemudian. Doakan Terus call Mimin. Tktahu nak tanya apa. Tktahu nak tanya cemana. Tp Mimin tahu. "Nani kenapa?" itu je mampu tanya - terus nangis. Belum tahu tp Nani yg aku kongsi dengan Mimin satu je. Baru kejap tinggalkan twitter. Akhir kali tgok masa kat kmpus. Kelas habis, sampai ke rumah, usai solat, tak tgok pun. Ingat nak tidur tp nak skrol twitter kejap. Nmpak nama Nani kat timeline. Banyak ni. Risau. Curious. Semua. Kenapa ni? In...

18:02 16/4/2014 Nurul Hanani binti Zahrin Kajang S1EP1 UPM, Age 20 1994 - 2014 Nanot. Pergi. Jantung berlubang. Dah sihat. Jatuh sakit. Pengsan. Warded. Apa yg somewhat pecah? Emm. Brain infected w virus. Jangkitan kuman. Operation. Died of cns. Brain failure. Pergi. Dah pergi. Innalillah. Petang. Hujan. Apa lagi? I'm healthy but, what am I doing with my life? What am I now? Harap Nani dah contact semua kawan, dah puas jumpa family. Dah laksana semua yg wajib. Pergi lah. Tenang sana. Tak sakit lagi. Kami menyusul kemudian. Doakan Terus call Mimin. Tktahu nak tanya apa. Tktahu nak tanya cemana. Tp Mimin tahu. "Nani kenapa?" itu je mampu tanya - terus nangis. Belum tahu tp Nani yg aku kongsi dengan Mimin satu je. Baru kejap tinggalkan twitter. Akhir kali tgok masa kat kmpus. Kelas habis, sampai ke rumah, usai solat, tak tgok pun. Ingat nak tidur tp nak skrol twitter kejap. Nmpak nama Nani kat timeline. Banyak ni. Risau. Curious. Semua. Kenapa ni...