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adoyy ,
exam dah habes tapi bosan ah sebenar nye . mase exam dah nak dekat , gataa2 nak kuar rumah lah , nak pegang handphone lah , nak dengar mp3 sambil bace buku lah [ jgn risau , da kena sita] , macam macam bende nak buat . tapi bile exam dah habes , aku selalu mengadu dekat ana , "Ana , aku tak tawu berape lame aku buleh hidup dengan keadaan hari-hari macam nie je . kite makan , kite lepak , kite maen , kite brgamba , kite buat tu je dah due hari dah ." hmm , ana pulak akan kate sesuatu yang jugak membosankan . lepas tu , ana nyanyikan lagu untuk aku . ouhh , aku memang hargai walaupun sebenarnye tak brpe nak suke lagu mendayu-dayu neh . huhu ;D

tapi bila fikir-fikirkan balik , bosan lagy waktu exam . tapi sekurang-kurang nye memang dah ade bende nak buatlah mase exam uh - bace buku . kan , kan ? hehee , tapi ta sume subjek uh aku enjoy jadi sudah tentu lah rase bosan uh timbul mase tengah bace buku . lepas uh kene pulak hadap hari2 . haaha , ta baek betol mengungkit . stop .

ungkit bende baek takpe . tapi jangan sampai orang buat tanggapan negatif , hoho .

yelah , yelah . ta baek MENGUNGKIT . jangan mengungkit langsung .

hm . baru je lepas mesej dengan kawan . nape aku baek dengan diye ? kadang2 aku fikir nape baek dengan orang ? sebab nak orang uh buat baek dengan aku balik ? hm , tak jugak . kadang2 aku buat bende yang aku sendiri ta tawu ape motif nye . saje-saje buat je . hm .

nak je aku senaraikan ape sebab baek dengan tiap2 kawan tapi buat mase nie aku ta tawu sape aku patut jadikan kawan . tawu tak sebab ape aku nak jadi macam aku yang dulu ? sebab aku nak rase hidup yang dulu . selalu nye kite tak digalakkan untuk berpatah balik tapi , aku bukan nak berpatah balik . cume nak rase je hidup macam dulu sebab aku rindu hidup aku yang dulu . aku nak kawan2 aku balik ! aku nak baek dengan sume orang tapi tak sume orang buleh baek dengan aku . sape kate aku taleyh baek dengan sume orang ? tak mustahil kan. belom cube jangan kate ta buleh , dah cube jangan kate terpakse , dah terpakse jangan kate menyesal , da menyesal jangan pulak salahkan orang , da tak salahkan orang salahkan diri sendiri , da salahkan diri sendiri perbaiki lah diri .

hm , bukan senang nak senang dan bukan susah nak susah . kau buat ah ape2 ikut suke hati kau , dapat ah susah . kan senang , senang ke ? hehee . ape aku cakap neh .

dah lahh tu , aku dah melalut nehh . whaa ?? Hujan baru je kuarkan album ke-2 ? patut ah .

**nak BACKSPACE je rase sume bende neh tapi nak wat cmne an , aku da taip ah pulak .

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