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if i am DEADDD


" i still shed my tears for you once in a while "
well ,


if i am going to be D E A D , i hope that sume orang tawu sume bende . yepp , of kos laa pasal aku . hahaa . but , when i think about it again and again , what's the point kannn ?


tapi , kawan aku penah cakap kat aku , " aku ta suke ade tande soal kat pale otak aku " . [ diye memang macam ni kadang2 . hal remeh temeh pun nak tawu jugakk ]

** takpe weyhh , kau sengal cmne pun tetap kawan aku


ouhh , then , kau nak tawu sume bende ? ade bende yg kau better takyah tawu . lagy bagoss . hahaa . kalau buleh aku pun nak tawu sume bende . tapi , bawak2 laa bersabar . sume uh bende kau akan tawu bile kau perlu tawu . bukan nye bile kau nak tawu . tu lahh perbezaan antare keperluan dengan kehendak . kehendak nie tak penting dan salu merugikan .

** ejaan nta pe2 ann


ape bende yang paling penting dalam hidup eah ? jadi bejaye laa . yeke ? mungkin . hm , tak , berilmu kott . who knew .. kan ?


HAHAA . semalam mase tengah online tibe2 dari luar tingkap ibu tegur aku .


" ape buat dok lame2 depan komputer ? bangon je hadap komputer uh sampai malam karang . pstu , tido . bangon balik karang , hadap bende tuuuuuu jugakk "


aku tak tawu nak cakap ape . BUKAN sebab ape yang ibu cakap tu betol , TAK BETOL punnn . yehhh , ta betol . aku baru je beberape lame hadap ' bende tuuuu ' . bunyi macam takde keje laen kann ? pdahal , aku bangon2 je dari tdo g blik air - mandi . lepas uh urus kan diri , ape2 yg patut . da petang baru aku online . then , macam semalam , sebelom senja aku offline . huhhhh ... dilema .


tapi , aku paham . ibu marah kat org laen sbena nye . tapi macam bse , kalau da aku jadi chosen one yg kne habuan nye , terime je lahh . nak cakap ape pulak . dah biase punn . tapi , kdg2 kecik ati jugak . ** bluekk .. kecik ati kononn


iye laa , macam ade sekali uh . haha , bnde ni aku da cter dekat kawan aku , Ana . mase uh ibu ajak g kuar makan tapi aku taknak sebab rase macam nak demam . ni laa satu2 nye kelemahan aku kalau nak g kuar . aku nie selalu saket . ape lah punye antibodi lemahh sgtt . lepas uh , ibu teros ckap ,


" tu yg ibu taknak denga uh . kalau kawan ajak kuar , bulehh je pulak "


huwaaaaa . dah laa tengah pening kepale waktu tuu - dengar pulak bende2 macam uh . tension . yang berok belakang uhh , menyokong je pulak kalau aku kene . tapi yang pasti mase uh aku nanges macam kanak2 . har har har . bayangkannn , dah 3 kali kawan kau ajak kuar and kau tolak mentah2 then , ibu korg cakap cm uh . suke tak ?


aku nie dah laaa emotional semacam kadang2 . hahaa , aku ingat lagy mase dekat skola uh , aku nanges bagai nak runtuhh hati aku . puas kawan aku pujok balik . hahaaa , diye kate , " aku ta penah tengok umirul merajok macam nie " . ape , fkir muke aku expressionless , aku emotionless ???? ** segan nak matiiiiiiii waktu uh , benci betol


dahh laaaa , da lari tajok ahh .

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