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huwaaaaa ,

hari nie dah 11 hari bulan september. tadi classmate aku ade cakap yang seminggu lagi nak raye pulak. hahaa, tapi rase tension ah. tension yang amat dow. aku tak tawu aku dah buat ape tapi aku asik rase nak maenmaen je dengan kawankawan aku. bukannye aku tak tau yang dieorang sume tengah sepatutnye busy study tapi, tu lahh. aku bosan asik kene hadap buku. adoii. tapi semalam kawan aku cakap, kalau nak lulus cemerlang, ni lah cabaran nye. bosan tu perkare biase tapi 'kalau tak dipecahkan ruyung, manekan dapat sagunye'. lol. malam tadi aku dengar je diye sampaikan mukadimah dekat aku. walaupun aku dah bosan asik kene bebelan diye kadang2 uh, tapi aku tetap dengar jugak. sebab sebelom diye citer masalah diye dekat aku, mesti diye kasi nasehat kawkaw dulu kat aku dow. hahaa ,

nie sape yang dengar masalah sape sekarang nieh ?

kadang2 aku bace je buku tu, tapi fikiran aku ke bende laen. terutame kalau buat latihan maths. ahhh, serabutnye pale otak aku sekarang neyh. isk, isk, isk. nape dengan aku neyh? terlampau banyak sangat dengar masalah orang ke??? bosan! bosan!

hidup aku sekarang dah tak macam dulu lagi. maksud aku dah tak macam mase form2 dulu. adoii, rindu nye nak hidup macam dulu tapi tak best gak kalau asik buat masalah dekat sekola uh kan. asik carik pasal je keje aku dulu. sehari tak begadoh dengan kawan uh dulu, tak sah. kteorang oke sbena nye cume entah lah, kadangkadang diye uh menyakitkan hati aku gak. tu yang aku salu perang sakan dengan diye uh. tapi sekarang diye dah pindah, hahaa. aku takde lah rase rindu nak begadoh dengan diye, rindu nak jumpe diye pun tak. senang cakap, aku tak rindu diye ah. buat ape nak rindu, diye selalu carik pasal dengan aku. suke sangat tipu aku, ingat aku tak tau hape. lalalaa, tapi tu citer lame. aku dah abaikan pun. tak kesah lah ape orang nak buat, nak cakap atau apeape je ah. aku dengan hidup aku je lah sekarang.

weyy, kau tak bosan ke?

ingat nak keluar jap tapi malas. memang aku malas nak jejak kaki kat luar rumah tu pun. melepak dengan kawan memanglah seronok tapi taknak ah hari nie. minggu nie je dah bpe hari aku balik lambat dari sekolah. hurmm, aku nak dudok rumah pulak lah. masalah nye, aku letih ah nak balik rumah awalawal. kadang2 uh macam2 bende aku kene buat sendiri. dah muak aku asik buat keje same tetiap hari. lepas neyh, petang2 aku nak tido. sape mesej aku, tunggu ah bile2 aku senang aku reply lah. tu pun kalau aku nak. aku rase conclusion nye sekarang neyh aku tak cukop tido, pasal tu aku tension. bile dah terlebih bejage, banyak mase terluang dengan buat keje2 harian. pasal tu aku bosan. okehh, bye bye.

selamat berpuase ah untuk readers. haa, dan jugak selamat menyambut hari raye aidilfitri pade minggu akan datang.

=)

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