" OOHMERULE "

Im currently continuing my degree in finance. Im fine, thank you for cheering me up every now and then. For those who laugh at my jokes, youre just as fun as a hillarious fresh jokes which are very pleasing. Im okay. Im not having difficulties. It is just everytime I went back into our room here - it feels empty somehow. Im not frustrated that we cannot gather like the old days. Im not mad because some of us are really struggling and have only little time to spend for me. Im not into any negative thinking about any of you guys. Im just not. I blame myself for not working hard enough back then when i got everything in my hand. I feel like I have taken everything for granted. I have taken all of my friends for granted. I wasted some time sitting alone feeling lonely back in those days when I could just call one of you guys to accompany me. I should have spent all my life at college with you guys because now all I can do is stare at pictures. I know I used to hang out with all of you

Hm So here I go again. It has been two days since I last call anyone. And then, the phone is damaged only-god-knows-somewhere. Thus, here I am feeling lonely. I dont want to talk to anybody else. I need my phone. I wanted to be on the line with people. Lol One morning, I woke up and the sun shone on me. Somehow it reminds me of my room at home and Mom came in mind. Today I wanted to hear from her so badly I cried bcs there is no way the phone is going to let be on the line with her. I was thinking of calling Anhar, a friend of mine but I cannot. And tried to reach Amal. I dialled every friends from Kmns hoping for one call that can finally be picked up but there is none. I went to search for blogs and I found one really interesting which remind me of my family. Things arent that bad. I went to treat myself with a new bag. New envi. New green cardigan. New friends. New menu for lunch. I spent most of matriculation allowance already. I should be happy for this though. And Im th