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a simple goodbye

some part of me felt missing



how i hope life could be so much more fun and interesting but , the current life that i'm living in is pretty good itself . its like this , i never thought that the first month of 2010 would be , well , kind of something that you wait for but then , it began to fall apart and come crashing on me somehow . now , i feel like some part of me is missing . since the very beginning , I HATE TO SAY GOODBYE ! yeah , i dont need to but , its like , i dont know what else or what other words i could tell them . just a simple goodbye and , puff , they're gone - no where to be seen . it feels so much worse when i feel like i was left behind .

gosh , i cant think of a better way . well , i dont know . i just , dont know what to do . i wont cry infront of them because just by crying , things cant be stopped that simple and i knew it . so , i dont cry when i tell them good bye . a good bye ? i think there couldnt be any ' good bye ' , could it ? still , the answer is , i dont know . what should i do then ? if i say anything or do anything , they still have to make their way out of the school because they made a choice . they chose to leave for a good reason and , maybe , i am not being rasional about these whole thing . i should have look at the bright sight . there's always a silver lining behind those odd shaped clouds , right ?

but , whatever it is , it still makes me feel sad : (

i feel dull , i feel bored , i feel lost , i feel pathetic , i feel like i'm not going to be okay but , i'll try not to be so sad . i still have a life ahead of me , i still have to go through my own path , just like them . i know that someday i will feel better but , now , its not yet the day .

Goodbyee , Siti Najwa , Nurul Aqilah , Irisha Qatrunnada , Aimi Syahirah , Umi Fatihah , Muhd Affiq , Muhammad Azmeel and others which i didnt mention . Be happy where ever you are .

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