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Of Feeling Too Comfortable

Evening, petty people. Hehe
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It sure has been awhile since i last post anything. Hm well, I actually got something to tell. I've been feeling good recently - goofy, funny, happy and whatnot. Things are going great if you'd ask. Still are. However, I believe I have not tell a single soul about this uneasiness I feel when I get to certain comfortable state. I do not fancy feeling comfortable, especially when it gets too comfortable. And suddenly, comfortable is not comforting at all.

They say, things go bad when you get too happy.

Not hoping for it to come true, well, who on their right mind would?
But, you see, life has its ups and downs. Sometimes things go as you favour them to be and the other times things just do not favour you.

**sigh

Unfortunately, I've experienced a state where everything was frustrating. Feelings were frustrating, people were frustrating, appetite, campus, life, me. I, myself, was frustrating. I lost half of my life. It felt so draining. And I was angry at every petty thing there was. I was hurt -- Mom left, everything which followed after that.

And the scariest part is remembering that before all that, just like now, I was feeling happy. That is why being happy again, starting to feel comfortable and at ease again, is scary. The world is promised to be temporary.

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