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hai, hai!

i had just put on a midi into this blog. i hope it doesnt torture anyone's ears.

uhm, what do you think about it? is it okay? or is it too melodious or too sentimental? ahihiihi!
nyway, if there's no complaint [whatever the spelling is] about the midi, it will be in dis blog for a long time.
but, i'm thinking of changing it to another midi song.
i'm searching for a good one.
i dunno why i like midis a lot. maybe it is because i wont hear any cracking voices from the singer.
ahihihihihi! just joking. but sometimes, the midis are better than the song itself.
i happen to hear one the last 2 years, i guess.
idc, really.
as long as it sounds well, then, it'll be okay. just fine.

ouh, last night we did not have dinner in the house.
we went somewhere else because Mom got fed-up with the helper.
can you imagine it, the went to another district without even bother to tell??
i was like, 'WTH..WTF..is this woman for real?' and blahblahblah.
unfortunately, my dinner didnt go so well. i was sort of, lost my appetite.
didnt eat that much last night because i was thinking about something else.
and still thinking about it till now. ughhh..
i hate it when my thoughts became worry. it makes me worry too!
boo hoo hoooo...luckily, i am not a major weeper.
that would make it even worst. thank goodness..

it's 3:33 pm and still not taking my morning bath.
i dunno why but lately, this life had became a mess. i hate it.
whaaaaaaaaaa....i wanted to cry all day long but,
that will make me look stupidd. i hate to cry my eyes out.
but i hate to keep this thing in my mind, my thought. ughh!
i'm tortured! aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i wanted to scream out loud.
something is bothering me and it was all because of this fuckin incident.
since when did i get so emotional?
huuuhuu..i want to be emotionless. NOW.
i dont want to feel anything, wait..that will make me look DEAD.
okay, cancel that wish. i wanted to be happy! i wanted to feel the happiness!
farah..farah..farah..[Arabic - it means happiness in English]
if i change my name to Farah, will i forget this stuff? it is torturing me inside out.

calming down**

Earth to Umirul...beep beep beep
she's still alive. ouh, i thought that she's gone.
for goodness sake, can you keep it down for a sec?
uhh, hey. she's ALIVE. ahahha!
yes, still alive.
what the..you think i was DEAD?
nahh, we were just joking. arent we, guys?
nope. i thought dat we checked her heartbeat.
well, what about it? what about my heartbeats?
it's not hard to tell. it stopped for 3 milliseconds.
you're kidding me.
i dont have time to kid you around.
ahehehehe! i was just speaking.
you speak to yourself?
yupp. why? u dont?
well, yeah. but not for like, 3951 times a year?
ouhh..then, you're weird.
you're the weird one.
ughh. forget it. if i do, i talked to u.
why?
bcus i am u. u're me.
ohh..i forget about that. ahihihihii..!
silly. now, stop talking to me.
why would i want to? u talk to urself.
shut upp..

beep beep beep beep beep.. beeeeeeeeeeep!

i'm awake. what the... i'm still ALIVE? i'm still alive. i'm ALIVE!!!! woooahh!

CAUTION: you're now in a blog whom the owner talks to herself regularly. if you're scared, close the window. this show will be terminated right after you clicked the Close Window button.
TTFN!

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