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aku ikut,

huuuu..

Iyee,
Aku ikut.
Kau je yang ta pasan.
Aku da buat tapi kau yg ta sedar.
Aku dengar cume kau je yg ta tawu.
Aku ckap, kau je yg ta hirau.
Nk wat cne lgy?

Law sume nak ikut ckap kau,
Ta dapat ahh..
Aku bukan robot, nk ikut kehendak kau.
Aku bukan kuli, nk buat ape yg kau suro.
Aku bukan jin, nk tunaikan prmintaan kau.

Kau paham2 lah,
Aku ney kan mnusie bse.
Aku taleyh trime law kau asik menindas.
Aku taleyh ikut sedangkan kau asik mmbntah.
Aku taleyh hdup law kau slu menyakitkan.

Kau tu kawan aku,
Law aku tolak, kau jatuh,
Aku yg salah.
Law aku tarik, kau sakit,
Aku jugak yg salah.
Tapi law kau da ckp blkang aku,
Takkan aku nk tunduk kat kau je lagy.
Baik aku gadai kan kau sorang,
Dari aku hilang berpuluh yang laen.

Law aku tnye kau jwab laen,
Yg kat org laen kau jwab laen knpe?

Kau kte kau brni ckap terus terang tpi
Kau tak buat pun.
Kau baekk sgt ke nak jage aty orang?
Atau kau mmg pngecut?
Takut aku lari dari kau..

Aku pun dah taknak laa kawan mcm kau.
Law lagy byk menyusahkan dari memudahkan,
Baekk aku carik kawan laen.
Baekk aku hadap kawan aku yg kau kte jahat tu,
Yg snggup menipu utk aku tuu.
Sejahat2 diye pun, ta penah buat mcm yg kau pnh buat kat aku.

Selame ni pun,
Aku tak rapat ngan kau,
Oke je hidup aku.
Tak mati pun aku dudok kat sekola uhh.
Aku tak penah kesah pun law kau ta ckap ngan aku smpy brbulan2.
Aku tak penah trhegeh2 nk tawu ape2 psl kau pun sbelum ni.
Sume aku buat, rase oke je sbelum neyh.

Tak paham npe kau kte aku lupe kawan.
Law aku lupe kat kau,
Aku tak masuk kelas carik kau lah weyh.
Mesty aku gi hadap bnde brfaedah yg laen.
Slme ni kau wat salah dgn aku, aku ta penah nk besa2 an pun smpy g ngdu kat org laen.
Ntah2 aku buat mcm tu, kau rse kau ta penah wt salah an..
Law kau rse mcm tu, aku pun ta heran.
Sbb sejak aku rpat dgn kau,
Aku tengok kau mmg jenis yg mcm tu pun..
Ta penah nak ngaku salah silap kau.
Asik nmpk silap orang laen je.

Dah tak snggup aku nak layan kau mcm kwn baek lagy.
Tapi aku bagi kau satu je lgy pluang.
Law kau ulang lagy salah kau kat aku tu,
Kau takyah la susah2 buang mse, buang air liur brcakap dgn aku.
Dah muak laa asik nak telan salah org tp tak dibalas baik pun.

Pagi tadi pun kau nk mrjuk2 ngan aku an,
Gi lah mrjuk sangat.
Bawak diri uh jauh2 kat kelas org laen.
Dlm kelas uh, kau mmg tak disenangi pun.
Buat semak pale otak kteorg je tahan kerenah kau.
Kau tu dah laa mcm bagus!!
Kau tawu pulak ckap budak laki uh bajet la abnde..
Tapi law org ngate kau, tau pulak kau nak marah.
Ape bnde yg kau ckap, kau ta penah fkir psl perasaan org laen pun.
Kau tak tau yg budak dlm kls uh, anti gler2 ngan kau sbenanye.
Kau tak penah rapat ngan dieorg, kau tak tau lahh ape yg dieorg pnh ckap.
Ape yg dieorg rase..sume kau tak tau.
Bahkan, tak penah ade rse nk ambk tau pun.
Kau asik fkir kan diri kau je.

Law kau rse kau da bgus sgt,
Smpy ape yg org laen buat kau nmpak salah je,
Kau teruskan laa dgn dunie kau tu sndiri.

Law kau cube rapat dgn budak2 kelas kau sndri,
Mesty kau rse diri kau uh byk yg tak betol.
Msty kau rse byk buat salah.
Tapi law kau tak rse jugak, aku ta tau la ape nk ckap dah.

Rugi laa kalau kau tak peramah dekat kwn skelas kau sndiri,
Sbb bile susah senang, mmg dieorg baik aty sudi nk tolong.
Memang tak rugi pun kau trime je salah org laen,
Jgn jadi offensive sgt, asik nk salah kan org...
Asik nak carik kesalahan org, asik nk besa2 kan salah org,
Nnty, satu mse dunie trbalik..org ta perlu kan kau..
Dekat spe lagy kau nak mintak tolong law bukan kat kawan kau.
Kau sedar2 laa diri tu brdiri dekat mane.
Jangan smpy org asik pndang kau menyemak je, tak elok.
Buat laa baik kat sume org selagi org uh boleh baik dgn kau.
Sabar je laa selagi buleh brsabar.



*** bnde neyh bukan aku tules smate2 nak luahkan prsaan, tpi utk spe2 je jdikan teladan atau pe2 je lahh...

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