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My Being Pathetic,


Life's just too sweet, isn't it? It's as if you're served with various cute and yummy looking cuisine. Haha. Yet, still blurry of which one will you dine with first. Ahh. My life, is getting sweeter. Suddenly I love Me. wheeee~

If you're wondering why, haha, I am content. I can't even explain this feeling. It is somehow beyond words. I just hope my grammar is getting better everyday. Speaking of which, I won't forgive myself if I didn't get an A for my English. I just won't. Now, now, leave that at that already. Yeahhh! Listen to this. A friend encouraged me to watch Another anime, and so I will, Irhene. I am so thankful I paid attention to your blog or else I won't be meeting with Sakakibara and Misaki - that would be sad. Pffft. I am also very greatful because, yes, I was searching for anime to watch by that time. The hols are forcing me to take action - to avoid myself from dying of boredom, of course. I believe now I have plenty of hobbies! And, that's good news, right?

Oh yes, today I went to The Mines shopping center. I was so happy, I finally got the chance to jog around every floor of a shopping center after some time. Yeehaw! Nah, I didn't ride on those animal-train thingy. Does that even illegal for a girl of my age? HAHAA. Hey, you wanna know what's the saddest thing about being born way early on a certain year? It is when you went to some places and no one knows its your birthday. That happen to me last year. It got really pathetic when I have to gain extra attention for people to realise the fact that it was my birthday! Suddenly that got me thinking, am I really that pathetic?

Here's the story.

On my birthday, this year, I've got to attend the last class for my driving license (the one where the teacher gave speech etc.). Then, people have to fill in some forms and put in our birthdate what-hell-ever. At first I was like, "Yeah, yeah, I know no one here accept for these two friend at my both side." After some time, I was like, "I woke up pretty early today, and it's my birthday! Fufuffuu". Of course, all of that was inner monologue thingy. What's the point of being loud when you don't know any of these people around you anyway.

Wait a sec, I really need to tell you this incase you thought I didn't get any birthday wishes yet by that time. Huhu. Being pathetic again. I did received text messages from friends, schoolmates and others earlier around that 12am - they wished me already. It's just, no one at that place know that fact it suddenly makes me feel gloomy. What's wrong with me? I don't even know those people for the only-Him-knows-how-many times!!!! Boink boink. Okay, lets lessen this being pathetic thingy. Lets get straight to the point, yeah. Before going home, I flapped my filled in form hoping the two girls beside me would realise something. HAHAA. Then, I got this silence treatment from them. I was like, "Please say it's my birthday!" inside. Before long, I stood on my knees on the chair, waving the form like hell at their faces and said aloud, "Hey, hey, I am already 18 today. And, you're not." with this so-happy expression on my face.

The girl from my sec.school heard me and went psyched over it. Ha ha. The other one just pretty plain didn't get me. She was still busy with her handphone. Still, I was so happy someone knew after hours of trying. Grr. Pissed off! Pissed off!

When I counted, there were almost twenty birthday wishes just by text. And, still counting. Life's so sweet. I don't need to judge every moment of it, I just need to go with the flow.

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