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pukul satu tadi baru lah habis tengok maher zain kat tv. haha. tiba-tiba teringat kat ustaz aku masa sekolah dulu. fizikal lebih kurang maher zain jugak tu. ada junior cakap muka macam pitbull tu. istighfar aku banyak-banyak. tergelak sikit pun ada jugak. sikit ke? yelah, ustaz muadzam sangat cerah orang nya. dia penah cakap kat classmate aku masa form 3 dulu,

"saye lahir siang pasal tu putih. si r* lahir malam pasal tu gelap"

masa tu memang aku terpaku lah. nak gelak macam serba salah pulak dah lelaki tu classmate aku jugak. && dia ada je dalam kelas masa tu. gelak nak taknak pun boleh lah. tak payah nak hipokrit sangat kan. nak gelak, gelak je lah kuat-kuat. motif aku cerita pasal dorg semua?

sini sini. malam hari bila pegi rumah kawan, afifah. dah sampai situ tak sah kalau tak jamah cerita mak dia. sikit pun jadi. hoho. suka pegi rumah dia - peaceful. afifah's mom told me that she met my friend,ain while she was in town. ain was with her mother. that's one of all the things which i love about ain. she loves her mother dearly. here goes another story,

we were still in school. yeah, masa tu ain dan beberapa orang kawan lagi masuk asrama. tiba-tiba. sebenarnya sebelum tu dorg ada ajak aku sekali tapi mengenangkan spm tak lama lagi memang takde lah aku nak hadap biasakan diri dok asrama dengan busy nak buat semua benda sendiri. study, revision, homework lagi. satu hal lagi, nak keluar pegi tusyen confirm kena jalan kaki tengah panas. aduh. kalau dekat sedepa takpe jugak. nak cakap aku ni puteri lilin memang tak lah. tiap minggu balik sekolah jalan kaki - berapa kilometer aku berjalan tu. semua cakap jalan pegi rumah aku dari sekolah penat. paling lama aku penah jalan ada dalam 45 minit. tapi bila dah biasa 15 ke 20 minit boleh sampai rumah dah. siap dengan duduk dekat meja makan lagi.

patut pun berat aku tak cecah 42kg.

sekali masa latihan sukan daerah. petang. duduk dengan ain - aliah ada sekali dekat padang sekolah masa tu. ain cakap dia rindu dekat mak dia. kebetulan masa tu mak dia ada kat luar pagar padang tu tengah tunggu adik dia KAFA. bangun, belum ain pegi dekat pagar tu aku dah agak dah. ni mesti ada program jejak kasih sat g. dia dah pi sana dah tu. sat gi, sabaq. then, just as expected. aku tak salah kan dia nak berdikari kejap dekat asrama tapi kalau dah macam ni, aku cakap,

"ain, kalau kau rindu sangat mak kau. elok kau kuar asrama. spm dah dekat kott"

yelah, tak susah kan diri. tak susah kan hati mak dia jugak. ibu mana pulak tenang hati tengok anak dah depan mata, bukan dapat apa pun dah takdir ada pagar kat keliling sekolah ni, menangis macam tu kan? aku dengar dia cakap, "mak, orang taknak dok sini. cakap kat ayah orang nak keluar."

bergenang air mata aku masa tu. teringat masa parent aku pegi mekah. hari pertama parent takde tu kasut sekolah aku kena curi kat junior. dotdotdot punya junior tak hormat senior. ehh, kecik saiz kaki aku kan? konon. saiz lima jugak. nak jugak aku tapak kan muka si pencuri tu [ada entri pasal ni - byk carutan]. then, hari keberapa lagi aku demam. barfing, vomiting, puking bagai nak rak - untung aku ada abang dua orang. then, lagi. sebab bibik masak seafood je keje, alergy aku datang pulak. abes kena gatai-gatai sampai tak tido malam. untung lagi aku, abang bawa pegi jumpa doktor kamal - kena inject. masa tu aku rasa macam anak yatim piatu kau tahu??

ain taknak terus duduk kat asrama sebab asik teringat kat mak dia. dia ni memang satu hal kadang-kadang. tapi aku respect dia pasal hal yang satu ni lah. dia jenis tak boleh tengok mak dia susah. aku faham lah kakak dia belajar. adik dia kat asrama sekolah lain. adik dia lagi sorang tu kecik lagi. yang boleh tolong mak, dia sorang je lah.

malam kat rumah afifah tu cakap kat mak dia, "ain tu lain.dia sayang mak dia lain dari orang. kira boleh diharap lah jugak." walaupun kadang-kadang tengok dia macam maskulin je kan. aku pun kadang pelik.

masa kat padang tu aliah pun ada cerita pasal dia masa jauh dari ibu. dulu duduk dengan makcik tapi kena layan macam apa entah. semua dia kena buat. lipat kain satu family lah bagai. okay, semua pun sayang ibu masing-masing kan. ain cakap lagi, masa makan ramai-ramai dekat dm dia teringat kat mak dia. entah dah makan ke belum sebab selalu makan sama. boleh kata semua benda lah dia ingat kat mak dia. aduh. last, bila tanya masa jumpa dia bulan lepas, "ain, berapa lama kau dok asrama tu yeah?". ringkas je jawapan dia, "tak sampai seminggu kott." .hm, dengar lagi baru-baru ni dia tolak pegi politeknik - ambik form 6 pun jadi asalkan tak tinggal mak dia. senang boleh balik rumah hari-hari renung muka mak.

okay.
sempena hari ibu yang bakal tiba mei ni. SELAMAT HARI IBU. haha. lagu maher zain number one for me tu sedap dengar, kan? awal jugak post untuk hari ibu. takpe. everything for you in advance.

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