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Please chase after me,

"... thinking all love ever does is brake and burn and end but, ..."
                                                                                                     - Begin Again
hello there , dear Earthlings . so , it's been awhile since mid-sem hols start . another two days it will be a month . please don't give up on me because i'm still trying to catch up on you - though i found out you've deleted a memory . eff that , i don't care . i'd like to apologize because i did the same only , differently .


"...starting to forget the way you look at me ..."
                                                                          - Be Alright
i promise her not to be sad . i promise her i won't cry (yeah, you bet i won't. it's a small matter like you've said) . i promise her to stop thinking about it . i promise her to not feel so torn apart . i promise myself that i will fake this out for her . now , i am at home pretending that everything's okay . i won't talk about it . i won't . i won't .


Put some heavy make-ups on , ready to fake a smile for the days to come . thank you guys for pampering me THIS much - i can't content *dying

Feb 6 - dear Fatin Farhana binti Midzan . Happy 18th birthday my little girl . You've grown to a good girl .

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