" OOHMERULE "

Last night, .. Well not exactly last night. It was early this morning. I asked Fatin to call for McDelivery and so she did. It was about 1++ in the morning. I went to check on Rani's writing paper work. Ira went for group discussion. Fara and Fatin were story-tellers. Anis went nextdoor doing assignments too. Our tummies demand for food. Approximately a quarter to 4am, Fatin's phone rang. I almost slept but I have to get dressed to pick up the food downstairs. Lol If it was not for food, I wouldnt bother to go all way down. The deliverer (is that it?) apologized for being super late. Ahh why dont you come later and serve us breakfast instead at 8am later? Nice, right? But of course I was not rude at all. I was all zombie-like and mumbling to my feet as I walked. Wehoo And we ate happily ever after.

Because I always talk about everyone else when you were next to me. People do not push me away. It is just me locking myself inside. Oh well. It is better to be hurt than to be hurting someone else's feelings. Tell you what, the fact is no one actually hurts me. Yepp I hurt my own feelings. You were not serious. I was not myself. We were just two friends spending some time figuring ways to end the nights. Nothing to worry about. This happens a lot. If it was not me then it was someone else. I remember every bit of what I put myself into. Ahha yes. Remind me that I used to walk into some other people's lives and left too. Ahh it felt bad at first but what if I did not respond at all? Ain't that going to hurt so much more? Ahh, now I get it. Im paying back all the debts now. At least it did not break the bond between all of us. And at least I got the love from my brothers. The always positive me :)

Today tengok The Vow. Last time dah tengok tapi part yang akhir jea. Mula dari Paige jumpa dengan Diane masa tengah shop groceries tu. Hm tak tahu pula cerita dia seronok jugak. Hahaha takda lah seronok tapi sedap lah. I pity Leo jea dari awal sampai habis movie sebab dia macam penyabar sangat - but then, his sacrifices tu paid off lah sebab ending Paige suka jugak kat Leo. Awwwhh sukaa tgok The Vow. Psto hari ni ingat nak pergi lepak matric but I have no guts to go in there. I could drive all the way right to the front gate but I need someone to accompany me. That place holds too many memories. Too many. Takut nanti masuk situ psto tetiba I cant hold my tears ke apa. Esp bila nampak astaka. Padang tu. Semua lah. Just thinking about it makes my heart pounds faster. 1st of December - birthday ayah. Birthday sorg player Chelsea, yeah, you know who. However, Paul Walker died tragically. He was at the passenger seat while test driving Mitsubishi ke apa kereta entah with another friend...