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Locking myself inside

Because I always talk about everyone else when you were next to me.

People do not push me away. It is just me locking myself inside.

Oh well. It is better to be hurt than to be hurting someone else's feelings.

Tell you what, the fact is no one actually hurts me. Yepp I hurt my own feelings.

You were not serious. I was not myself. We were just two friends spending some time figuring ways to end the nights.

Nothing to worry about. This happens a lot. If it was not me then it was someone else. I remember every bit of what I put myself into.

Ahha yes. Remind me that I used to walk into some other people's lives and left too. Ahh it felt bad at first but what if I did not respond at all? Ain't that going to hurt so much more? Ahh, now I get it. Im paying back all the debts now.

At least it did not break the bond between all of us.

And at least I got the love from my brothers. The always positive me :)

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