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"Hey there, Delilah. Here's to you. This one's for you"

Hello, lovelies.
💗

There are certain things keep bugging my head every now and then but none of those is as saddening as this one currently circling my head. Almost two years has passed. Crazy how one thing could really decide to just sit there in your head and won't ever leave, right? *sigh.

And as crazy as that may be, um, I don't know why it keeps coming back. I don't mean anything vivid like flashbacks - just feelings. Perhaps I'm so used to missing it every single day and had been comfortable of doing so for quite a long time that somehow a man of routine like me failed to forget. Not like I'm trying hard enough.

I remember crying so hard and has begged to have my life back.
Wallahi, that one du'a was so sincerely wished it literally came true. I got my life back.

He gave me my life back.
Just the way it was before life decided to be complicated.

But why, though everything is back as it was once were, that I start to..um.
Am I far from being grateful?

I understood that we can't turn back time (not like I have the strength to experience it again, I don't want go back in time) but I believe we could all mend bonds.
I don't want to fix the past. I'd like to fix what's 'now'.

As for now, apart from studies, this is my only worry.

Flashback to 2012: No social media, no internet. Stealing your friends' phones, snap pictures and have them returned was categorized as fun. Wait till your cellphone rings, fun escalates 😁 

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