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Kami kongsi Nani

18:02
16/4/2014
Hanani binti Zaharin
Kajang
S1EP1
UPM, Age 20
1994 - 2014

Nanot.
Pergi.
Jantung berlubang.
Dah sihat.
Jatuh sakit.
Pengsan.
Warded.
Apa yg somewhat pecah?
Emm.
Brain infected w virus.
Jangkitan kuman.
Operation.
Died of cns.
Brain failure.
Pergi.
Dah pergi.
Innalillah.
Petang.
Hujan.
Apa lagi?

I'm healthy but, what am I doing with my life? What am I now? Harap Nani dah contact semua kawan, dah puas jumpa family. Dah laksana semua yg wajib. Pergi lah. Tenang sana. Tak sakit lagi. Kami menyusul kemudian. Doakan

Terus call Mimin. Tktahu nak tanya apa. Tktahu nak tanya cemana. Tp Mimin tahu. "Nani kenapa?" itu je mampu tanya - terus nangis. Belum tahu tp Nani yg aku kongsi dengan Mimin satu je.

Baru kejap tinggalkan twitter. Akhir kali tgok masa kat kmpus. Kelas habis, sampai ke rumah, usai solat, tak tgok pun. Ingat nak tidur tp nak skrol twitter kejap. Nmpak nama Nani kat timeline. Banyak ni. Risau. Curious. Semua. Kenapa ni?

Ini bukan kronologi. Cerita aku terbalik. Aku cerita jugak. Taip lagi. Sedih ni tapi tak terungkap. Gelak lagi. Banyak dengar mereka gurau. Suram lagi. Sesekali teringat arwah. Ya Allah, tadi bgtahu family - aku sebut arwah. Nani dah pergi ke?

Dekat matrik. Lepas berminggu tukar kelas. Jumpa lagi. Dekat padang. Tegur aku, "Aku Nani lah". Iye, Nani. Sampai sekarang aku ingat. Masuk bilik Mimin. Lupa lagi. Nak jaga hati, "Ingat. Ini classmate aku ni, Min". Teka nama. Betul. Alhamdulillah. Maafkan aku masa tu terlupa. Nani baik, peramah, kelakar. Aku suka. Suka sangat.

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